My Name's Bean
Her name's Pearl
She happens to be my
cure to all things
I feel good!
Have a glimpse of my world
Most part of my life revolves around Work, school, Pearl, Mom and friends When I can't strike a balance I end up rattling This, is me.
To begin, please click on the pictures on the right
A tooth-less rattle
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
12:38 PM
I'm losing track of time. I can't remember what happened on which day anymore. One minute I'm dating 2 people, the next they're both giving me the.. 'it's either me or her!'
Choices. Finally. It came to an end. Pearl's leaving. Because I made her feel 2nd best. Initially I had so much to say to her, but it's either now or never. I'll learn to keep all my emotions inside. No matter how hard it is, I won't tell her that she's wrong. She's so very wrong about me.
Drank 1 long island tea, 2 screwdrivers and 1 coke last nite. Lynn's been awfully nice to me about everything. But deep down, I'm still afraid of trying. I ruined my life totally. The drinks, the cigg.. The girls. Everything I shouldn't be, I am. And just because I'm afraid of lonliness, Pearl thinks I'll go back to Lynn. Maybe she's right, but I hope she's wrong. People have convinced me that singlehood is good. On the emotional rollercoaster I'm going through, I believe lonliness is a much easier emotion to handle.
I feel misunderstood But it's better this way. I want you to go, Before it's too late. Now I got to learn to fall out of love with you.
The End!
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ME!
Name: Beanster
D.O.B:19th Aug 83
Age: 22
email: kwan_k_y@hotmail.com
Things that keeps me entertained for awhile
Time with Pearl
Star gazing
Science Magazines and good books
Pool games
Jazz music
Food with good company
Ah.. It's christmas!
I want..
A pair of shades!
A nice watch!
More cash!
Good food!
A new car!
More time with Pearl
A better relation with my mom (a season of love and joy!)
A log cake!
